The Journey Archive
- Motivation
Motivation As the title of this archive suggests, I’ve suffered from depression for most, if not all of my life.My first suicide attempt was at 8 years old, and things only seemed to get worse form there.After the failure of … - Medication
Medication Mianserin didn’t cure my depression, but it turned the volume down on the overwhelming noise inside of my head.It at the very least gave me enough space to breathe, and importantly, get out of bed.Like a drowning man in … - Walking Begins
Walking Begins As has been stated in “Chapter 1”, my initial motivation had been weight loss.I’d become not just miserable, but fat and miserable, which I had deemed unacceptable. You could be a miserably suicidal, alcoholic mess…but you’d at least look … - Sleep & Light
Sleep & Light I’ve battled with sleep for many years, another aspect of my damaged self to which I had applied a dizzying array of medications, light therapies, and Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, with no improvement whatsoever.I grew up as a … - Diet & ARFID
Diet & Avoidant Restricted Food Intake Disorder ARFID, or Avoidant Restricted Food Intake Disorder is a relatively recent eating disorder diagnosis introduced in just 2013.Personally I can’t help but feel it would have helped me a great deal had the … - Alcohol Reduction
Alcohol Reduction As has been alluded to, I’ve struggled with substance abuse since I was 12 years old.There was a point in my twenties when I knew, with absolute certainty, that I had been intoxicated in some shape or form … - Walking Intensifies
Walking Intensifies As all of these changes to my medications, sleep, diet, alcohol consumption and more were taking place, there was one constant amongst it all, and that was my persistence in going for walks. Only now, my walks had … - The Infection
The Infection as has been established, thing were certanily improving.not perfect, but improving.Diet, Sleep and Exercise were all doing their bit, enabled initially by the profound impact of the correct medication. but not everything can go right all the time, … - Unexpected Joy
Unexpected Joy So during this time, as I would make my way once every one or two days into the kitchen to eat a single piece of buttered toast, I would often notice one particular wall.when walking down the hallway, … - Micro-Biome Discovery
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